Better off without you

My story is one I think many have but may be too scared or embarrassed to share. Growing up my mother was a single mother and my father was not in the picture, in fact I didn’t have clue who he was. When I was six I met him for the first time but our relationship was flimsy for a few years and then out of the blue he decided he didn’t want to be a father and walked out of my life. At the time I was heartbroken, I was 13 and afraid I had done something wrong. Was I weird? Am I not good enough? What will I do without a father? But now that it has been five almost six years I know the answers, yes I am weird and I’m very proud of it! No I’m not good enough for him because I’m too good for him! And live my life to the fullest with the family who does care.

Graduation day was one of the proudest of my life. After walking across the stage and throwing my hat I ran to my mother and whispered “I did it without him” she smiled back and said “yes you did”.  I was tempted to dig up my father’s number and send him a picture of me with my diploma however I thought that would be a little over the top so I refrained.

Graduation day was the day I realized that you don’t need people who put you down in your life. As long as you have a strong support system, it could be a total of three people but as long as you have them you will make it. As well after being depressed for months after my father left I realized that dwelling on the past will get me nowhere, the only way to move on is to not worry about what I could have done but what I can do now. Those are the two main things I plan on carrying with me throughout college. Without my father leaving I don’t think I would be the person I am today and I love who I am and I love my family and as bad as it sounds I am thankful every day that he left because without that happening I would not be who I am today.